The most current of events that continues to impact my daily life and train of thought is my recent move from Belgium to the U.S. Pacific Northwest. Even though time has raced by and already I have been in my new surroundings for almost two weeks, my feet still feel slightly swept so that I don’t quite have the full balance or steady methods to anchor myself. However, piercing through all of the uproar and chaos during this change, the impact of “relationships” has cried out with the fullest gusto and has demanded some attention. Imagine that, relationships needing attention… I have noticed that beyond people, even how I relate or connect to things, actions or to situations has snagged my curiosity and has overwhelmed me at the same time.
When I think about the word “relationship,” my automatic word-association is to “romance” or “friendship.” My second filter of word-definition jumps to what I learned in high school/college literature classes – “relationships defined by capacity of conflict.” These are the “Person vs Self, Person vs Person, Person vs Society, Person vs Universe, Person vs Nature” descriptions. But, since relationships are hopefully not just about conflict, and not just about other people, how else can I be conscious of how I am connecting to everything?
I think that understanding how one relates to everything around or within oneself on all levels is possible, as well as important. At the moment, of course, I am addressing some of the levels from my standard understanding because “what you know” seems to be a great place (as well as the default place) to start. But, I would like to move on from the automatic and flow beyond my learned method of thinking or organization of thought to find a perspective that can handle the overwhelming that I am experiencing.
So….Relationships to everything, on all levels and sub levels. I suppose this train of thought could race to the umbrella concepts that span across my thought and that are ultimately affected by my associations, definitions and experiences to everything. I suppose one could say that the human experience and subsequent human expression could be defined through relationships on all levels. But, exactly how can someone be aware of all relationships at all levels to the extent of continuous comprehension and to consciously live within them?
Maybe the relationship that pushes and stretches the boundaries of imagination and thought should be explored to find the different perspective. Person and Infinity.
And how can I describe my relationship with infinity? Well, it’s like a sling shot effect, or like the quick zoom-out on Google Maps. The map is bursting at the seams, trying to hold infinity and in a snap, there is a zoom out and now, infinity looks like the tiniest dot within the landscape of additional infinity. And what is that tiny “infinity” dot in relation to my life? A focal point in my day, a mere moment, perhaps the present moment.
Can you ever be outside of the present moment? Well, I think you can definitely be unaware of the present moment. But, if the awareness is there, would it be possible to develop only my relationship with the present moment and thereby develop all relationships at once?