The new calendar year begins. A prime time to think about life, direction and perspective; to reflect on past thoughts and seek out new lines of reasoning. So, on a rainy fog-filled morning, with coffee cup in hand, I strained my eyes thoroughly, browsing through the multitude of headline stories presented by online media outlets. At the start, I searched for inspiration among the black and white lines of text. Then, as my posture slunk further to a form that asks “are humans really supposed to sit for hours this way?,” I realized that inspiration was the distant star of emotions triggered by my perusing. Frustrated, disconnected, fearful, sympathetic, enraged and ultimately betrayed – those were the emotions and reactions ranking near the top of the list.
From death and destruction caused by suicide bombers, to people complaining about the requirements for the Nobel Peace Prize, to a child plagued by unstoppable weight gain due to a surgery side-effect, to a list regarding the ‘11 Dumbest Things Said By Media About Women In 2013.’ These were just a smattering of story lines; each snagged my attention and triggered a distinct emotional response.
Actually, because of my responses to those stories, I am reminded of my earlier blog post (“Frustration Loop” published October 2, 2013) when I mentioned briefly a method of thinking, described as reaching outside of one’s self as an immediate response to anything encountered. I then continued by asking if perhaps there is another first step, which would include “reaching in.”
To develop and apply the concepts of thinking methods, I wanted to break down how I normally think, which I will describe as “looking outward” and then try a different perspective or method of thinking, that I will describe as “looking inward.”
So, what is that first step in the method of thinking timeline (either outward or inward), before any emotion, or any action may be triggered? Is that initial step so natural and engrained that it pushes my train of thought down a well entrenched path without me even thinking about it? I think so, or else that’s just my excuse for procrastinating with this blog post and staring at a blank screen.
Okay, down to business then. In order for this to make sense to me, I need these concepts (looking outward/looking inward as methods of thinking) in a useable everyday format. Let me work with a concrete example. I’ll take a media story that I just saw online and process the experience in both methods and try to note the timeline and details of both. Here goes….
I just saw a story streaming on the Today show about a teen bullied because of her looks and deciding to get plastic surgery. She got a nose job and a chin implant and feels confident enough now to go back to school and make friends, after not wanting to leave the house for a couple years.
Outward – First Steps:
*I think about the story as it is told, those involved, the circumstances, the choices, the outcome.
*I feel judgments rising, emotions gathering energy.
*I feel frustrated that this kid got plastic surgery in an attempt to affect people’s judgement of her.
*Then, the frustrated spiral continues when I ask myself, are these the values that we want our kids to live by?
*Then, there is the counter-argument in my own brain – she is empowered and can do what she wants as long as there are the resources for it. If it raises her confidence, then great.
Ah, the loop of no clear answers and frustration, feeling a pressure to form an opinion and a convincing argument, the automatic and expectation that I should have or make a judgement. I am left feeling slightly manipulated, drained a bit of energy, leaning toward ‘who cares’ apathy.
Inward – First Steps:
*I listen and watch without judgement – a calm pool.
*I gather the details for the sake of knowing, observation.
*I have no opinion; I feel compassion.
*I understand the story’s perspective, but give no energy to it.
*I maintain my perspective.
*And I let the encounter go.
*I move on.
There is no analysis, comparison or pressure to form an argument. In this example, I do not think as the first step, I listen. I am not launched onto the mind’s path of judgement, of creating an opinion. I do not personalize the story, or take it in. I maintain my own perspective and empathize with the characters involved in the story and observe the various facets of a society intertwined. I feel full and deep with the warmth of heartfelt interaction.
Interesting. So, the first few steps lead perhaps to more questions, to more “concrete example” work. Hmm…another coffee cup in hand, another rainy fog-filled morning and the new calendar year continues….
© M.R.Collier, A Way of Your Own, 2014